[blockquote align=]“Tantra Stories” is a series of touching testimonials from our Source School of Tantra Yoga seminar students. This story is written from a recently divorced man’s perspective who was a self-proclaimed “tough guy”. Learn more about our Tantra Seminars HERE![/blockquote]
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Dear Charles, I wanted to thank you again for an amazing weekend with you and Leah. It truly changed my life in a major way.
I am a man, allow me to elaborate…
I served in the military during war time (3 tours overseas). I’ve been to countries and seen things that most people can’t even imagine, both good and bad. I have seen life and death first hand. I am a father, have been a husband, and friend. I threw people out of bars as a profession, fought in illegal fighting clubs, and currently am an adventure/endurance racer. I train all week long so I can do things like carry a 60lb pack for 12 hours while completing challenges such as carrying another human being for multiple miles. I pride myself on being strong enough mentally to push past limits that most don’t ever come close to.
As I mentioned before, I consider myself to be a man… that is until this last weekend.
Recently my wife and I split up. I came to your workshop looking for healing and awareness, but what I received was so much more!
As the weekend progressed I was amazed by the information you gave us. The meditation was wonderful, the yoga helped with some aches and pains in my body. The breathing techniques and chakra work were beautiful and I was very excited.
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Then I found out about Saturday nights homework: The Sacred Spot Massage on a woman! I choked at that point.
See, I recently split with my wife. When you asked what our fears were during the men’s circle I said, “I am afraid my own stuff would spill out and I would be unable to be there for the woman who chose me.” I was iffy on whether or not I could do this right up until the last minute.
As we sat eyes closed waiting to be chosen you told us that if we didn’t want to be part of it we could go. I stayed. I told myself if I don’t quit during difficult physical challenges why would I quit now for something like this?
I was chosen by a wonderful woman I had connected with during an exercise on Friday night. My fear increased. I truly wanted to be there for her. As we left and headed out I was contemplating if I had it in me. Would my own emotions come out? Would I fail to be present? What if I started to cry? Then something happened.
I was able to shelf my own stuff and came into awareness of how important it was to be there for a woman, how important it was for me to be able to do this and practice this.
When I saw her in the parking lot at a store by her home she was nervous and jittery. I was not because I remembered what you taught us. I put my hand over her heart chakra and told her, “It is ok, I am here for you and will take care of everything.” She melted in front of me with relief.
The night was incredible. As I performed the sacred spot massage she burst into sobs. She cried and cried and I stayed right where I was rooted in the moment – present. I held her still, listened, told her I was once again there for her. I apologized for the damage done to her by my brothers of the world, and assured her she was worthy of love. The tears passed and I was able to continue.
The rest of the session was amazing as she was brought to waves of pleasure after pleasure and our chakras aligned allowing energy to fill us both up. When all was done I did not ask for anything. I brought her back down slowly and left when she was ok.
The drive home I have never felt so alive. I was electric, energized, and strong!
I have been a strong and manly man my entire life. Pushing myself past perceived limits to prove my strength. Saturday night, standing in the face of the feminine and holding strong there while she sobbed, raged, and gave in to her passion…. that was the first time in my life I have ever felt like a man.
Since Sunday I have had multiple women from the class tell me how safe they felt with me and that they too wanted to practice Sacred Spot with me. I believe, in my heart, that I was put here to help men become men and women to heal.
I am hopeful that I can come to the Teacher Training seminar, become a Certified Tantra Educator, and help you and Leah to reach more people. Thank you so much Charles. You have given me a gift for which I am eternally grateful.
Sincerely- J.Z.
